08 July 2009

A couple of days ago I had a conversation with a friend about being lonely in New York. How would it be possible to feel lonely in New York City-one of the most populated cities in the country? And that's precisely the point. In a city with so many people, it magnifies any feelings of loneliness you may feel. Some days, thats how I feel here. I'm in a program with 130 other students who are in the same situation with me, and yet I haven't really made any friends. Granted, I generally take a long time to form friendships, but there are so many possibilities (and a month into the program) but yet I haven't really made one good friend. It definitely amplifies the loneliness I feel. Maybe that's why I've gotten so good at being independent. Maybe it's not a choice, but a necessity. I'm really not that distraught over this, but merely a realization that I am good at making superficial connections, but a harder time forming the deeper ones.