Yesterday while listening to some music on the way to school, "Bottle it Up" came on. It doesn't remind me as much of the Paradise concert where I fainted and ended up in the ED (but I still think about that) as it does of May 2008, walking back from Porter Square. I had just left Michael and was walking to Harvard Square to catch the 1 bus back to the Prudential area. I remember crying on the phone with Amy and feeling so confused. I can't believe it's almost 2 years since that time in my life. And for the first time in a long time, I feel calm, untethered.

I found this song on Youtube while listening to "Bottle it Up": "Winter Song" by Sara Bareilles and Ingrid Michaelson.